| fuck finals.
fuck all this bullshit.
fuck college.
fuck long distance.
i'm fucking OVER IT.
FUCK. |
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| can I just take this time to say how I have the most awesome boyfriend in the history of all boyfriends... ever?
oh, and not to mention I have the most wickedly amazing best friend too.
I cannot WAIT to move to minneapolis :) |
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| i hate college.
it ruined me. |
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| i am so very much in love :) |
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| I feel really alone.
There is no one around me that I can really talk to about anything.
I mean I have my close friends, but I don't want to make them unhappy by telling them how bummed I am about pretty much everything.
I still have no idea as to what I want to do with my life.
It's one of those weird feelings where the world is moving around me so quickly, and I feel like you're the one that's trying to catch up to everyone as fast as I can.
Everyone around me seems to have figured it all out, and I'm still here, waiting for something to happen.
I guess that's my problem. You know? I'm just waiting for everything to happen and I'm not making an effort to really get out there and make it happen.
I'm just really afraid. I feel like such an outsider, for some reason. Like I can't find anyone in specific to just click with. I feel like there is a huge sign on my head that screams, "Get away from this girl! She's not worth your time!"
Okay that's dumb. That sounds so pitiful and I don't want to be pitied. That's dumb.
But I still feel alone.
I miss Camden. And Julia. I miss summer and not having to deal with anything.
I miss God.
Crazy, huh? But I miss God. I'm just really afraid to go back to Him though. Because I feel like I've messed up so much that there is absolutely no hope for me whatsoever.
Man. This is rough stuff.
I don't know what to do. |
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